Stay Awake

Last Light on the Sinking Ship

Last Light on the Sinking Ship (Photo credit: James Marvin Phelps)

Why discourage always surround us with his invisibly eyes?

Fallen asleep in the fogginess dream

Sunk in the rush loads of thoughts and the world’s lights

Never believe that we have been sleepin for thousand of days

Where does the sun show up the heat?

Melt us down from the cloudy of nightmare that not truly exist

so we could be awaken by Your delicate light.

Hope it won’t be long,

coz I believe he has his own way heating up the dumb man such me,

rescue me from cold,

and will find Him in His throne of wisdom

illuminates this depth of consciousness,

Recalling who we are…..

Days when I started calling Your name ever since

KL, September 20, 2007


In Nothingness I Hope

Last nite I dreamed about something weird

Yesterday my friend told me bout your power onto us

A couple days ago I watched movie bout devil

A couple weeks ago a friend asked me bout your presence

Many months ago I read book bout there’s nothing truth in you

Last nite I got the power from you

To destroy devil, like Constantine on movie

But I got the power in You

Boat at Cap Coz

Boat at Cap Coz (Photo credit: pixiepic’s)

Maybe too many books bout denial of You

Too many movies I like to watch about Your existence

And the black existence

While I’m scared of both of you

Who am I if the dream is true

I just think that the life is like what I view

Coz never felt it, or denied it though ever felt it

But I don’t care

But I feel scared afterwards, wanna telling it to somebody

Maybe You’ll give me the power

Coz I feel like I’m nothing, no power, no strength

Then your power will be onto me as

my friend said

Coz in weakness you will be

In nothingness you show your power and greatness

But I don’t wanna feel or think of the devil

But I hope Your power in me

To run the days as the ordinary days I view…

Within my nothingness I always hope for the light…..

KL, June 11, 2007

True Friend is forever

To: long distance friends

My heart’s always calling your name

no matter who you are

Be the greatest of all

Such two opposite poles in one

As we are one

Bring bright all our days,

through far distances

Can’t touch you

But can feel your mind

Wanna give you more…and more

Share our humility and the real us

All wishes and blown up imagination

Wanna reach the star altogether

God please take us up together on the sky

as we sewing out our own stories

and shout it out loud to the earth that is so cloudy

pour all glitters and remove shadows surround us

Like the sun is shining through….no matter what life gives

But I’m telling you….our friend is forever…as long as we live


KL, June 21, 2001

Hear My Cry

Lord, give me a clue

What should I do?

Am I too perfect?

Or Do I always sink on blame to my self

Felt dumb in my throat

Help me coz the burden on my shoulder harms me

Each time I feel out this way

Should we confess all the time?

Sin that not felt to those that I’m not fit for calling out

Or I’m just a looser that try to pretend

Forgive me ooh God if I’m doing wrong that I didn’t mean it

I surrender to your power onto us

Make everything’s all right

No burden torturing us inward

Coz I have done many things to work it on

But now I have no strength

Forgive our sin

Hear my cry Lord

I just want everyone lives in love and affection like You do to anyone, anytime, anyway, and anywhere…..

Coz You are always be right here with us…


KL, September 28, 2007



Deepest Penitence

Imprinted deeply in my mind

Being trapped by indignant wrath

Seethe the one, to whom should deserve the most honor and respect

Above all who live in this world

The only one I granted for paternally fusion

Negative side always be around me embodied in words and deeds

Smile of happiness turns into glum to me

Soon after cheerfully seeing my innocent son

What a sinful stubborn man I am to menace his bliss and authority

What a kind of fulsome mad person I be

Whilst he got through everything that being the greatest part of my life

Probably forgiven is enough for me,

But a huge hole scraping never been removed from his threadbare throne

And I said “It’s just a matter of communication, and I don’t know what to do if I have any heaps inside.”

I’m a barbarian who doesn’t know the meaning of sense

To the frailty eroded by terms and toils

to the divine wise man before me that much needs gently embrace and shelter

With all my gratitude and depth penitence of my foolishness

Would you please replace the whole broken wounded heart with heavenly ever flowing water to relieve this thirst of sinner…..

You used to buttoning my cloth as I was a baby,

But now, please let me do it for you as you couldn’t do it by yourself

in the rest of your life…


KL, July 17, 2007


Jesus bin Sirach 3: 12-14


“My child, take care of your father when he grows old; give him no cause for worry as long as he lives. Be sympathetic even if his mind fails him; don’t look down on him just because you are strong and healthy. The Lord will not forget the kindness you show to your father; it will help you make up for your sin”.




Prayer for Today

I asked for strength….

And God gave me difficulties

to make me strong.

I asked for wisdom….

And God gave me problems to solve.

I asked for prosperity….

And God gave me a brain and

brawn to work

I asked for courage……

And God gave me obstacles

to overcome.

I asked for love….

And God gave me troubled

people to help.

I asked for favors…..

And God gave me opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted…

But I received everything I needed.

Live life without fear, confront all..

Obstacles and….

Know that you can overcome them


Rhapsody in Love

Everytime I wake up, I wanna look at you…

Don’t wanna let you out of my sight.

Wanna hug you always in me…so sweet and brittle,

then I kiss you tenderly before I sleep.

Your cry reminds me when the first time I saw you.

Your voice such a little angel whispers on his melodious song in the night.

Everything in you is a wonderful thing that I can’t deny on this being,

between belief and joy….tears and hopes…..

Can’t remember how dreadful is the pain, but one thing I knew…

it’s the sweetest moment ever happened in my life,

beyond anything I’ve got,

above all the precious gift I’ve ever had.

You’re the one that I long for

Can’t believe it’s true, but it’s true….

Yes, it’s You my Little Angel!

Indescribable thought of your existence,

As I know…you were before as I portrayed on my mind in times I peeked you,

soon the world is being bright afterwards,

the morning sky is greeting the day as you were born.

Indeed, its wave wakes me up of the Grace of the Almighty….ever

I wanna wake up all the time, stay in chapel as the joy we’ve got,

to keep on remind such the love in Him….

Vowing to bring him up, just for His glory……later in time.

KL, June 4, 2007