Day 5 – A Thousand Words To Be Thankful

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Trust in the Lord

Do we really trust in God? Especially when in a situation doesn’t support us to believe? Once in a circus I went, there was a man brought his little boy around 3 years old. He carried his son to go through a horizontal robe around 22 feet high, but he just trusted still in his father’s cuddle. In John 21:6 :
6 He said, “Throw your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.” When they did, they were unable to haul the net in because of the large number of fish.
 Do we trust in the Lord in every situation of our life such those stories above? Especially when we see our kids, they need to have education, proper living and many living needs we have to go through on it. As the disciples simply did what Jesus said to them without asking, meaning that they trusted in Jesus to throw the net on the other side of the boat and they would find the fishes. Do we put all our trust and hope on Him?
It takes a process so God can see your faith, and you will be growing in faith according to what He wants and whether you trust in Him more than anything else. Just surrender to Him for what He wants for you to do. The same way as the disciples did what Jesus said, going to the right side of boat according to what Jesus said. Do we do what Jesus said in our lives? It takes time to understand that God is involved in our lives. Let God take control in every step we choose. Pray and read daily Bible to catch what God speaks to us, what He wanna tell us, listen to His words in a silence, to let Him talk into our hearts even anytime. Ask God for us to have a wisdom to discern His words. If He wants us to do something to choose a path that even crooked, He will guide you onto it, He will be with you to get through it and get focus on Him. Do not let a doubt, and a daunting long journey exhausts and put down your trust on Him. Remember, He was the only One who created us…so He never ever leaves us alone, His creation!
Feed My Sheep
As a parent, we are the figure of our children, they follow what I and my husband do. We try to communicate to our children in every situation we face and speak to them according to their level. As they copy from parents, in difficult moment they will also reflect on what we parents did in their previous experienced life with us. They must experience the difficult moment like us on their own situation too after they have grown up. Probably they will convey its memory till they grow up on the future life, and acts the same as we did as well.
As I read at John 21. Our children need support, not only physically seen such as food, fund, school etc but also spiritually. They need our spirit to guide them, to lead and give strength to them. I was thinking, what could it be if I didn’t have spirit anymore to survive? My children would have also been following the same too. They are supposed to be strong. So this scripture gives me a clue to arise, to stand to be strong in God spirit, even though I and my husband are far each other. In this scripture, God is awaken me to take care of the innocent children as His precious treasures to be entrusted to us by God. We are the parents have responsibility to guide them, to feed them with the spirit of God through parents deeds and do in everyday. We tried to do the right way for their example. So our children as our sheep must be taken care according to what God wants on their life with our love and the spirit of the Lord. If we really love Jesus, we will do His commandment to “feed” our children spiritually and physically. Because He loves us first, He gave His life for us, He gave us children to be raised up well. God is so great. This scriptures strengthen us as well:

15 When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”

“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”

16 Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”

17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my sheep.  (John 21 NIV version)

Jesus asked 3 times to Simon Peter, which means God wants His commitment to take care of His sheep. The way that I must do with my children. He needs our commitment in raising our kids. So I must wake up to face the world, doing my daily activities, as if I have friend who takes care of me, indeed I have friend, He is Jesus! Thank to Jesus for His spirit onto us. He will guide me to take care of my kids well, the important think whether we believe His guidance onto us or not, and trust on Him all the time in every situation of our life and do not be afraid.

I’ve found thousand words to be thankful of what You have done for us God, it moved me to go through my day. I also tried to send video or God’s words to support my husband spiritually too. I was really happy to hear my husband letter coming…

Day 5

Good morning my darling,
I woke up this morning, and I felt hungry, so I grabbed banana then I went down to kitchen. I fried beef and put in my room and would eat it after I did my morning jogging. It was really quiet today Most people might enjoy their time last night and easy Sunday waking up late. I passed through the city street and started getting use to with the weather….getting warmer after few minutes run then headed back to my room and enjoyed my yummy breakfast….I was ready for 11 am mass…I got a warm greeting from pastor standing at the entrance door….I could see more people  and it was choral mass….from the elders and seniors but their voice and songs were beautiful…..and inspirational…..thank you God for giving me this beautiful day, I always pray and plea to God…..please bless my family…
(From Wellington With Love, 23rd July 2017)

Letter From Wellington – Day 3

Thank God for your blessing to us. Around 11 years we’ve been leaving far from our country. We learnt so much how You’ve taken care of us in our lives. From what we didn’t know at all each country we lived in till we knew how to survive at some countries that somewhat different from our cultures. There were some times me and my kids experienced where my husband was away from family, a couple of months for his job assignment, but You gave us strength. Again for these couple of months we experience the same way. We’re thanking God of every situation that He’s given to us, and I believe that He will take care of us…and this was the letter he sent to me day to day….

 

Day 3

Today, I went to church again for morning mass and felt a bit sleepy after that, still adjusting to NZ time plus 4 hours difference than back to KL….I grabbed my simple breakfast banana bread  and milk and bought a quarter of chicken for $4.5 that was enough for protein consumption today to keep me warm….it was cool out there and windy…I was planning to go to the cable car but cancelled it…ended up with reading a book at national library, enjoyed my coffee and of course called my wife…I got a text from my young brother said my mom got hurt on his heart, I really prayed to God, hope everything’s gonna be OK for my parents while I’m here. I was heading home, took a few street pictures as the beginning of winter view. The street looked windy, chilly and getting dark at 5 pm in the afternoon. After arriving at the hotel, I started to carry on what I had to do on that evening and took a good rest. Thank God for the 3rd day I have spent in this new country and all blessing you gave to me, and I missed my family there…

(From Wellington With Love, 21st July 2017)

 

 

 

 

 

Letter From Wellington – Day 2

I felt alone without you, and none to talk about our dreams, however I could see your picture from the expecting letter every morning on my message that healing me on a slight yearning of you…Thank God for this opportunity to be far each other, so I really appreciate how precious my spouse is…there is a time in everything….

Day 2

Hi there….
I woke up about 5 am and went to church just next door at 7.30 am. It was cold morning… but felt warm as I went inside a simple and beauty old church.  It was about 15 people joining morning mass. I did enjoy the message, atmosphere and of course “bread &wine” holy communion. Definitely will enjoy again tomorrow, then I went back to hotel and carried my luggage to next hotel where I’m going to stay for a few weeks. I just grabbed warm noddle salad for my breakfast, showered and ready for short walk trip today. I was going to bank for new account opening and walking down to William Street….and woow it’s almost noon now….time flies….
I crossed the street and found museum next to harbor…It’s just beautiful as I continued walking along the sea shore where people sat down, taking their food, kids rode bike…. and I saw family of 4….this reminded me with my sweet wife and kids… and definitely I pictured this feeling today to bring them here to see how beautiful this city was…park and playground ain’t that far…..I’d like to say…you’ll love it babe…..pass through it…and got to “Te Papa Museum”….the entry was free and really good entertainment for kids and family about history of Maori people, dinosaurs, earth science and also….earth quake education….which I thought this was so spotted on as NZ is in the “ring of fire”(earth quake zone) equal to Indonesia, Japan, etc…
After enough spending time with museum, I walked back to other way and passed through a huge library…and amazed with lots of books where people spent their time inside (including kids) and by this way they were allowed to borrow….they don’t need to buy books at bookstore, no need to go to shopping mall….and of course..save money. On my way back to hotel, I got a chance to buy bread, milk and banana for $7 only and that was enough for 2 days…I would say I could manage to spend $10-15/day for F&B or max $20. Thank God of this day….this is my today’s story. …hope everything well in there.
(From Wellington With Love, 20th July, 2017)

Letter From Wellington – Day 1

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Reading a letter from a far, 4 hours earlier from here is the best thing I could hear from my husband. Expecting this letter of everyday. Thank God, you protect us everyday even though we’re in different time and place.

Day 1

Thank God, finally I touched down in Wellington about 6 pm after long flight and delayed from Sydney airport. A bit surprise it was dark when i got out and catched a bus to city center. I stayed at backpacker hotel for one night & saw people (from Asia, Europe)…they cooked and utilized kitchen as much as possible with their own basket full of their own bread, onion , pasta ready to cook. i just grabbed my own $9 chicken wrapped at food court not far from hotel upon checking.
i’ll stay one night with 1 room mate checked in earlier. I saw heater inside the room that could give me a bit warm from 10 degrees outside I hope I could sleep well tonight. Before going to bed I activated my new NZ mobile, sent emails, messaged my wife and kids, a couple of things to do and done. At midnight…oh ….I couldn’t sleep well ..heard guys and girl talking midnight….and room mate snoors :)…I plan to wake up for morning mass tomorrow. Goodnight and miss you all!
 
(From Wellington With Love, 20th July 2017)

Yearning of You

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We are separated by distance but it will never do us apart….we’ll meet our tomorrow’s dream together….miss you…(From KL with Love, December 2015)

Jessie J Lyrics

“Flashlight”

When tomorrow comes
I’ll be on my own
Feeling frightened of
The things that I don’t know
When tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes

And though the road is long
I look up to the sky
And in the dark I found, lost hope that I won’t fly
And I sing along, I sing along, and I sing along

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can’t lie, it’s a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
‘Cause you’re my flashlight (flashlight)
You’re my flashlight (flashlight), you’re my flashlight

Ooh

I see the shadows long beneath the mountain top
I’m not afraid when the rain won’t stop
‘Cause you light the way
You light the way,
You light the way

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can’t lie, it’s a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
(Light, light, light, you’re my flashlight)
Light, light, you’re my flashlight
Light, light, light, light, light, oh
(Light light light you’re my flashlight)
You’re my flash, oh

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can’t lie, it’s a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
(You’re my flashlight)
You’re getting me, getting me through the night
‘Cause you’re my flashlight
‘Cause you’re my flashlight
You’re my flashlight

Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh oh oh

You’re my flashlight
Light, light
You’re my flashlight
Light light ye-yeah

(Light light light
You’re my flashlight
Light light)

You’re my flashlight

(From Mexico in Love, December 2015)

Open Arms

Show me the way

I live with mask of sin and be tormented by its apology

Strive within my own judge

I, the one who convinced your follower

Accept my impulsive unconsciousness thoughts, utterances and deeds of everyday

Send me your angel to reach my soul and drag me away from loads of burdensome

Me not but take control of me

Against my power that trapped me down into black hole of fall

Forgive and raise me up.

Don’t let them break my soul.

As I know You’re my strength

You’re my shelter, my joy and never let me down

who heal my burnt wounded err with your abundant gracious love

turns cold as white as snow so I can see your open arms..

KL, January 31, 2014

Hopes…

Unforeseen Blessings

Unforeseen Blessings (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I like the title on my Blog, I feel fresh every time I read it, 3 words but magical words that turning me on every circumstance I feel in my life. Whenever I am down, count the blessings, whenever I am blissful, count the blessings, whenever I am anxious, count the blessings, whenever I am mad of the situation, count the blessings. We count the blessings that we have from God, we count every single thing that God gave. We count every blessing every tiny and small thing in our life that make us feel positive. If we feel blessed means we believe that God’s love is never ending. God will never give blessings only once in a lifetime, but His abundant love is dripping anytime whenever hope is impossible, whenever we’re lost or failed.

We were born safely into this world was a blessing. God even has  plan for us before we came into this world, every single day we got uncountable nourishment, love and affection from our parents, family, friends. We’re changing apparently, we’re growing up independently, we can take care our self, having relationship with others, we can serve others too, it’s not merely our strength, but His blessings are always working on us.

I understand people will feel abandoned by God in a period of time, I felt the same too. There’s a time I felt not feeling well, and what I could do just pray while I laid down on my bed, I even couldn’t lift up my hands, I couldn’t grab my Bible to look up His verses. I seems lees motivation when I was sick. It seems I was sinking in a dream that I even not realized whether I was in real life or not, especially with the big thought of problems I got. I was thinking of my kids that needed someone helping them out in their study for their exam, how was their meal, who was gonna take care of their uniform. I asked God for strength, but before that I tried to say thank that God has been so perseverance to me so far. I tried to remember the past when God’s helping hands around me where there was no hope, I tried to memorize things that I felt that  it was all God’s miracles on me to accumulate my strength to keep me believe in Him, so I could pray to Him with faith, instead of complaining of what He’s been offered on our life. Finally, I could find strength in Him to always believe in  Him so I can pray with faith and always be thankful to Him.

And what’s the next, as I read the book of Nick Vujicic “Unstoppable”, I really pondered more the power of faith in action. As we recognize that God gives His blessing onto us, is not only be there, but it is supposed to be put in action and practiced many many times. We pray in faith, and do what we believe. Sometimes we feel I don’t believe something we can’t see, but we have witnessed His wonderful miracles in plenty occasions in our life in the past. It had tested us to put trust on His great love. Same as Nick Fujicic parents, they grieved for the perfectly formed child they’d envisioned but didn’t receive. But they gave up their attempts to understand why God had given them such a child without limbs. Instead, they surrendered to His plan, whatever it might be, and what they could do is raising him as the best they could with love, because they know God’s love in their life. The result was amazing, Nick Fujicic has grown up and he finally becomes a great author and motivational speaker that God had planned for Him through situation seemed unwanted for normal people could receive, but never impossible for Him to open the world’s eyes looking for hope and achievement in this life, especially through hardship or difficult situation.

We need to focus not on our problem but put our vision on Him, so we can see the lights of hope that leads us to an open door. Whatever life may offer you or whatever difficult the situation is, just surrender to Him, put your trust on Him. Don’t forget to recall His blessings since you came into this world until present time. You’ll know that God really loves you, always be with you, and you’ll never be alone because there’s always a hope in God, our Creator.

God Bless You!

KL, Dec 10, 2013