Life is a mystery, people will face “up” and “down” through their life. We never know our future. What we do today is doing what we can grab and reach based on our heart feeling. I knew that I have changed since my vision was started to focus on Him.
Life is learning to live life itself. Some people somewhat agree with that opinion, some people ignore, some people move to face what the life offers without thinking what life is. Some people surrender and stay at the same pace. Some people ask why life is cruel while some people ask and learn how to encounter every single thing that matters them.
Feeling contended in every circumstance is one of number ways to accept everything God‘s gift to us. However, lots of temptations from our flesh really obstacle us, either blaming this life or making our own decision to count on ourselves without God’s help.
Once I experienced lost something valuable and really important in my life. For me who believe in God, I asked God “why it was happening to me. Give me Your miracle so I am able to wonder of Your greatness. Why didn’t you answer me. You said everything impossible for human is possible for you, but why it’s never been appeared in my life. Part of my heart was telling me “Ooh does God exist? You can’t even prove it, be logic!”
Now I know that I don’t simply believe that kind of whisper. I know I’ve passed my level of experience, learnt life to the next step, no longer the same as I was being atheist. I’ve passed the level where I lost my way and was solely relying on my self. What I knew before, our mind was powerful than any other creatures and I was asking why people tended to be foolish by God ism influence. I would rather adore the philosophers who were wiser than believed on something couldn’t be seen and couldn’t be proved the existence. Karl Marx was one of the great modern philosopher that was not having the same thought as people who believed in God, even through Socrates that was having an idea that there was ‘One’ that controls our destiny, I was disagree with it until I tried to seek the study research on my own thesis then I took a correlation between religion, physics about universe, story of genesis, and everything related to God.
I knew people can’t be forced to believe in God until God Himself showed His mercy on them through their life. It was me who was found difficult person, broken because of what was happening in the past. However, I knew God had His own way to reach soul that really needed His grace.
On the contrary, now I even can’t imagine how people keep standing on themselves, while they know they have limitation. Why don’t we think in a big perspective on how great “someone” who created universe itself who held our destiny. People come and go, we even can’t predict what’s happening next and when is our death to come. Truly, we are just human being who always be anxious of the death coming closer without knowing where we are going to go after death. I dare to say, it’s better I trust on something beyond my mind, to the “one” whatever it is, but I knew there was caused makes something happens, a cause and an effect, alfa and omega than drift on something uncertain. We exist in this world because something created us. It was no longer caused by sun, mountain, universe (it was a belief of people long time ago though). Logically, do we need to worship “Him” who created us, created the sun, the moon, the universe, etc? We can’t say for sure before we accept it in faith in Him which makes us peace to go through our life. God is there when peacefulness is into one’s heart, then you can’t hardly believe how powerful He is in your life experience, as long as you go with “Him”.
KL, 28 October 2013