Stay Awake

Last Light on the Sinking Ship

Last Light on the Sinking Ship (Photo credit: James Marvin Phelps)

Why discourage always surround us with his invisibly eyes?

Fallen asleep in the fogginess dream

Sunk in the rush loads of thoughts and the world’s lights

Never believe that we have been sleepin for thousand of days

Where does the sun show up the heat?

Melt us down from the cloudy of nightmare that not truly exist

so we could be awaken by Your delicate light.

Hope it won’t be long,

coz I believe he has his own way heating up the dumb man such me,

rescue me from cold,

and will find Him in His throne of wisdom

illuminates this depth of consciousness,

Recalling who we are…..

Days when I started calling Your name ever since

KL, September 20, 2007


In Nothingness I Hope

Last nite I dreamed about something weird

Yesterday my friend told me bout your power onto us

A couple days ago I watched movie bout devil

A couple weeks ago a friend asked me bout your presence

Many months ago I read book bout there’s nothing truth in you

Last nite I got the power from you

To destroy devil, like Constantine on movie

But I got the power in You

Boat at Cap Coz

Boat at Cap Coz (Photo credit: pixiepic’s)

Maybe too many books bout denial of You

Too many movies I like to watch about Your existence

And the black existence

While I’m scared of both of you

Who am I if the dream is true

I just think that the life is like what I view

Coz never felt it, or denied it though ever felt it

But I don’t care

But I feel scared afterwards, wanna telling it to somebody

Maybe You’ll give me the power

Coz I feel like I’m nothing, no power, no strength

Then your power will be onto me as

my friend said

Coz in weakness you will be

In nothingness you show your power and greatness

But I don’t wanna feel or think of the devil

But I hope Your power in me

To run the days as the ordinary days I view…

Within my nothingness I always hope for the light…..

KL, June 11, 2007

Monologue Sigh

In the moment

spacetime (close up)

spacetime (close up) (Photo credit: Absolute Chaos)

like this….

is the best time to see

the glorious time to find who I am

or reflect myself to know who is the real me

Not to let it go

What’s deep in my heart saying about me

I believe everybody, I, and all…..

use mask to show up who they are

Or opportunists

To be acknowledged their existence

to exist!

So who am I?, who we are?

Seems blur in  the beam of a wide impassioned sea

Never appears

Only if we meet the real us…such in this silent,

Wanna set aside everything in my mind

Sin, reflection, feedback, fear, doubt and more…

Oh what a fragile I am

That’s the only thing I know

That mustn’t come stabbing me

should remind myself

I am what I am objectively

Please alert!

KL, June 20, 2007

When I Say that I love You

(The song that I wanna hear everyday, to remind me that You are near…..always)

You feel that you’re lonely

It doesn’t prove that you are alone

You feel that nobody wants you

It doesn’t mean that no one cares about you

Listen to the word I say

And I always be by your side

You mean everything to me

And I will never leave you

Coz I love you so..

If you think that you’re nothing

Before me you are something beautiful

You think that you can’t do anything

But you can do a lot of things with Me

Listen to the word I say

And I will always be by your side

You mean everything to Me

And I will ever leave you

Coz I love you so..


When I say that I love you

It means I give the best for you

When I say that I love you

I will give everything for you

No more fear about the future

And blame for the past

I’ll give everything when I say that I love you


I just want you to know that I die for you

I want you to know that I give all my life for you

When I say that I love you……


Doesn’t make sense…..

One day, my friend asked me “Why your God seems doesn’t make any sense, there are, father, son and the spirit” Mmmh This was a question that always be asked, but maybe lots of information he got but maybe he didn’t understand it. I didn’t blame him.

Supposed that we are asked “Do you think that there will be a friend who wants to die for you?

Probably some people said No, but few said Yes, I said Yes as well. I said yes because the only one who can do it is Jesus. He’s done it for me because he is a good shepherd wanna die for his sheep. I am one of his sheep, I belong to him as it’s said in John 10:14-15:

I am the good shepherd as my Father knows me and I know my Father, in the same way I know my sheep and they know me and I’m willing to die for them.“

The crucifixion of Jesus showed me that he is a good shepherd who wants to die to redeem our sins. But it seems nonsense for worldly people as it was said in Bible (John 10:25)

Jesus answered, “I have already told you, but you wouldn’t believe me. The deeds I do by my Father’s authority speak on my behalf; but you will not believe, for you are not my sheep. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me. Give them eternal life, and they shall never die. No one can snatch them away from me. What my Father given is greater than everything and no one can snatch them away from Father’s care. The Father and I are one

I believe in You Jesus, coz you want to die for me, and Your crucifixion as a symbol of our life. We should bring our cross along this life but we never be alone because You’re always be with us. It makes me comfort, coz I have friend that always be with me who always help me to go through this life.

I just said a parable to my friend:

How many email address do you have?” I asked.


“Would you mention what each email is purposed for?”

“The first for my personal relation, second for my outside business relation and the third for my colleagues”

“Ohh that’s great, all are only yours, isn’t it? That’s such how the Father be…”

Maybe he didn’t understand it or didn’t want but I hope he did…Yes but if I was asked “Why your God is being like that (in three individuals)”

I said “I don’t know” and I’ll site as in Bible:

“Such a person really does not understand them, and They seem to be nonsense, because Their value can be judged only in spiritual basis. Whoever has the Spirit, however, is able to judge the value of everything, but no one is able to judge him. As the scripture says,

“Who knows the mind of the Lord?”

Even God Himself is nonsense for everybody. Who knows the mind of the Lord? Lord can make things impossible for worldly people become possible for Him, that our mind cannot measure it, because He is greater than anything. We’re only the smallest thing of the universe, while He is greater than universe itself….

In my heart I said : “It was not the glorious world or gold you redeemed us, but with your loves and sacrifice, how can I not love and follow you God”

“O Lord I’m all yours!”


KL, June 15, 2007


Nite Shadows

February 15, 2008

February 15, 2008 (Photo credit: hoosadork)

Oh the nite world,

It’s long long time ago since I left you

Filled my days with the fantasy of nite light

Place for the young souls release out pain and happiness

Moving bodies embodied by the unreal beauty of life

Crazily dance, music that never back

The mesmerizing past never fade

Time to grab win and freedom once only,

Blow up emotion flying high scattered by dim light’s shadows

When…. .when could we get back again ?

Madly wanna see you again

But it’s nonsense, I’d buried all your memories deep down inside….

Though you’ve been a part of my drowning sweetest and greyist life…ever  had….


KL, February 15, 2008

Let the Spring Begin…..

july 3 2007 saint louis arch fireworks

july 3 2007 saint louis arch fireworks (Photo credit: paparutzi)

Flickr today

Flickr today (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

If you be right back to the bench you used to arch

Forcibly disguise all hopes in dimness of the whole story there

You’ll mourn rusty shrift perishing on your tress

Today isn’t the time for bewailing losing

Nor calling the time comes in between……

Not you’re culpable or the time that wasn’t unfair hanging up your desire

But the faith has its railway to go on………

Taste endurance merged into the mellow carving of the sweet old story

In order to stride your step to the spring fostering your own light

See thru the snowdrop beauty entering the soul every single day

Let the spring illuminating your heartbeat knitting the days of tomorrow’s dream

Coz your own story must be engraved soon..…


KL, July 3, 2007