Day 5 – A Thousand Words To Be Thankful


Trust in the Lord

Do we really trust in God? Especially when in a situation doesn’t support us to believe? Once in a circus I went, there was a man brought his little boy around 3 years old. He carried his son to go through a horizontal robe around 22 feet high, but he just trusted still in his father’s cuddle. In John 21:6 :
6 He said, “Throw your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.” When they did, they were unable to haul the net in because of the large number of fish.
 Do we trust in the Lord in every situation of our life such those stories above? Especially when we see our kids, they need to have education, proper living and many living needs we have to go through on it. As the disciples simply did what Jesus said to them without asking, meaning that they trusted in Jesus to throw the net on the other side of the boat and they would find the fishes. Do we put all our trust and hope on Him?
It takes a process so God can see your faith, and you will be growing in faith according to what He wants and whether you trust in Him more than anything else. Just surrender to Him for what He wants for you to do. The same way as the disciples did what Jesus said, going to the right side of boat according to what Jesus said. Do we do what Jesus said in our lives? It takes time to understand that God is involved in our lives. Let God take control in every step we choose. Pray and read daily Bible to catch what God speaks to us, what He wanna tell us, listen to His words in a silence, to let Him talk into our hearts even anytime. Ask God for us to have a wisdom to discern His words. If He wants us to do something to choose a path that even crooked, He will guide you onto it, He will be with you to get through it and get focus on Him. Do not let a doubt, and a daunting long journey exhausts and put down your trust on Him. Remember, He was the only One who created us…so He never ever leaves us alone, His creation!
Feed My Sheep
As a parent, we are the figure of our children, they follow what I and my husband do. We try to communicate to our children in every situation we face and speak to them according to their level. As they copy from parents, in difficult moment they will also reflect on what we parents did in their previous experienced life with us. They must experience the difficult moment like us on their own situation too after they have grown up. Probably they will convey its memory till they grow up on the future life, and acts the same as we did as well.
As I read at John 21. Our children need support, not only physically seen such as food, fund, school etc but also spiritually. They need our spirit to guide them, to lead and give strength to them. I was thinking, what could it be if I didn’t have spirit anymore to survive? My children would have also been following the same too. They are supposed to be strong. So this scripture gives me a clue to arise, to stand to be strong in God spirit, even though I and my husband are far each other. In this scripture, God is awaken me to take care of the innocent children as His precious treasures to be entrusted to us by God. We are the parents have responsibility to guide them, to feed them with the spirit of God through parents deeds and do in everyday. We tried to do the right way for their example. So our children as our sheep must be taken care according to what God wants on their life with our love and the spirit of the Lord. If we really love Jesus, we will do His commandment to “feed” our children spiritually and physically. Because He loves us first, He gave His life for us, He gave us children to be raised up well. God is so great. This scriptures strengthen us as well:

15 When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”

“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”

16 Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”

17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my sheep.  (John 21 NIV version)

Jesus asked 3 times to Simon Peter, which means God wants His commitment to take care of His sheep. The way that I must do with my children. He needs our commitment in raising our kids. So I must wake up to face the world, doing my daily activities, as if I have friend who takes care of me, indeed I have friend, He is Jesus! Thank to Jesus for His spirit onto us. He will guide me to take care of my kids well, the important think whether we believe His guidance onto us or not, and trust on Him all the time in every situation of our life and do not be afraid.

I’ve found thousand words to be thankful of what You have done for us God, it moved me to go through my day. I also tried to send video or God’s words to support my husband spiritually too. I was really happy to hear my husband letter coming…

Day 5

Good morning my darling,
I woke up this morning, and I felt hungry, so I grabbed banana then I went down to kitchen. I fried beef and put in my room and would eat it after I did my morning jogging. It was really quiet today Most people might enjoy their time last night and easy Sunday waking up late. I passed through the city street and started getting use to with the weather….getting warmer after few minutes run then headed back to my room and enjoyed my yummy breakfast….I was ready for 11 am mass…I got a warm greeting from pastor standing at the entrance door….I could see more people  and it was choral mass….from the elders and seniors but their voice and songs were beautiful…..and inspirational…..thank you God for giving me this beautiful day, I always pray and plea to God…..please bless my family…
(From Wellington With Love, 23rd July 2017)

Letter From Wellington – Day 4

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Everyday has its own story…Today, I went to a playground accompanying my kids to play, while I was thinking of you…it seemed strange….before….I felt busy with the church matters that made me a bit ignoring you, but you felt it had taken all my attention away from you, while I knew you had a problem that we supposed to carry on together…However, I was still doing my own desire, forgetting it by finding religious matters that gradually forsaken you, but initially the more it was agitating you till I felt that you were not balanced emotionally…and I realized it must be something wrong that I had done…and God gave me willingness to accept the reason on my own…..otherwise the more I insisted the more it frustrated me to be in discomfort moment in my family life.
And now I felt strange on this time you really meant a lot to me, that I’ve never felt this strong…I knew those were the times that I had to give more affection to you….that was the time that I had to serve you well as my husband, as I served well my religious community before. I knew you couldn’t get into the intimacy with God without my involvement as a wife that supposed to be the one who supporting you to go through life…to be tough…to be confident…to be sure in stepping forward to pursue our dreams together….
Thank You Lord, to remind me of the important thing of family as the second priority after closed intimacy with you..thank You for this situation You gave us so we found out the way to re-track back according to Your ways. This situation was reflecting him as well to surrender to You without relying on his thought but on God. This was the scriptures that we always remember:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverb 3:5)
While I was thinking of this, the letter came to ease my longing for him…

Day 4 

Hi Rosa……this morning at 9 am,  I’ve got a chance to do exercise & running along the harbor….brrr…it was cool and windy out there …no wonder many people opt to stay at home for now…..less people ….but it was good exercise.
At 11 am went to church for mass….more people coming in than weekdays’ mass…no music…I wonder if they knew there was someone volunteer able to play music that would be great….I wish you could play in one of the church someday.
At 2 pm I was waiting for sunshine to come out…but no sunshine…just wind………
Oh yeah…for food…i wanted to cook for my lunch…bought minced beef $3, pepper, onion, garlic, salt, chili flake….and brought it to hotel and fried it & ate with bread straight away….
At 4 pm …I walked down to other side of the harbor expecting sunshine..but still the same…cold and windy….but people still enjoy it with their winter suits…..
I wish you can come here, it could warm my days even in this winter, but after all, I thank God to have all the life experience that God gave us.
(From Wellington With Love, 22nd July, 2017)

Letter From Wellington – Day 3

Thank God for your blessing to us. Around 11 years we’ve been leaving far from our country. We learnt so much how You’ve taken care of us in our lives. From what we didn’t know at all each country we lived in till we knew how to survive at some countries that somewhat different from our cultures. There were some times me and my kids experienced where my husband was away from family, a couple of months for his job assignment, but You gave us strength. Again for these couple of months we experience the same way. We’re thanking God of every situation that He’s given to us, and I believe that He will take care of us…and this was the letter he sent to me day to day….


Day 3

Today, I went to church again for morning mass and felt a bit sleepy after that, still adjusting to NZ time plus 4 hours difference than back to KL….I grabbed my simple breakfast banana bread  and milk and bought a quarter of chicken for $4.5 that was enough for protein consumption today to keep me warm….it was cool out there and windy…I was planning to go to the cable car but cancelled it…ended up with reading a book at national library, enjoyed my coffee and of course called my wife…I got a text from my young brother said my mom got hurt on his heart, I really prayed to God, hope everything’s gonna be OK for my parents while I’m here. I was heading home, took a few street pictures as the beginning of winter view. The street looked windy, chilly and getting dark at 5 pm in the afternoon. After arriving at the hotel, I started to carry on what I had to do on that evening and took a good rest. Thank God for the 3rd day I have spent in this new country and all blessing you gave to me, and I missed my family there…

(From Wellington With Love, 21st July 2017)






Letter From Wellington – Day 2

I felt alone without you, and none to talk about our dreams, however I could see your picture from the expecting letter every morning on my message that healing me on a slight yearning of you…Thank God for this opportunity to be far each other, so I really appreciate how precious my spouse is…there is a time in everything….

Day 2

Hi there….
I woke up about 5 am and went to church just next door at 7.30 am. It was cold morning… but felt warm as I went inside a simple and beauty old church.  It was about 15 people joining morning mass. I did enjoy the message, atmosphere and of course “bread &wine” holy communion. Definitely will enjoy again tomorrow, then I went back to hotel and carried my luggage to next hotel where I’m going to stay for a few weeks. I just grabbed warm noddle salad for my breakfast, showered and ready for short walk trip today. I was going to bank for new account opening and walking down to William Street….and woow it’s almost noon now….time flies….
I crossed the street and found museum next to harbor…It’s just beautiful as I continued walking along the sea shore where people sat down, taking their food, kids rode bike…. and I saw family of 4….this reminded me with my sweet wife and kids… and definitely I pictured this feeling today to bring them here to see how beautiful this city was…park and playground ain’t that far…..I’d like to say…you’ll love it babe…..pass through it…and got to “Te Papa Museum”….the entry was free and really good entertainment for kids and family about history of Maori people, dinosaurs, earth science and also….earth quake education….which I thought this was so spotted on as NZ is in the “ring of fire”(earth quake zone) equal to Indonesia, Japan, etc…
After enough spending time with museum, I walked back to other way and passed through a huge library…and amazed with lots of books where people spent their time inside (including kids) and by this way they were allowed to borrow….they don’t need to buy books at bookstore, no need to go to shopping mall….and of money. On my way back to hotel, I got a chance to buy bread, milk and banana for $7 only and that was enough for 2 days…I would say I could manage to spend $10-15/day for F&B or max $20. Thank God of this day….this is my today’s story. …hope everything well in there.
(From Wellington With Love, 20th July, 2017)

Letter From Wellington – Day 1

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Reading a letter from a far, 4 hours earlier from here is the best thing I could hear from my husband. Expecting this letter of everyday. Thank God, you protect us everyday even though we’re in different time and place.

Day 1

Thank God, finally I touched down in Wellington about 6 pm after long flight and delayed from Sydney airport. A bit surprise it was dark when i got out and catched a bus to city center. I stayed at backpacker hotel for one night & saw people (from Asia, Europe)…they cooked and utilized kitchen as much as possible with their own basket full of their own bread, onion , pasta ready to cook. i just grabbed my own $9 chicken wrapped at food court not far from hotel upon checking.
i’ll stay one night with 1 room mate checked in earlier. I saw heater inside the room that could give me a bit warm from 10 degrees outside I hope I could sleep well tonight. Before going to bed I activated my new NZ mobile, sent emails, messaged my wife and kids, a couple of things to do and done. At midnight…oh ….I couldn’t sleep well ..heard guys and girl talking midnight….and room mate snoors :)…I plan to wake up for morning mass tomorrow. Goodnight and miss you all!
(From Wellington With Love, 20th July 2017)

Yearning of You


We are separated by distance but it will never do us apart….we’ll meet our tomorrow’s dream together….miss you…(From KL with Love, December 2015)

Jessie J Lyrics


When tomorrow comes
I’ll be on my own
Feeling frightened of
The things that I don’t know
When tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes

And though the road is long
I look up to the sky
And in the dark I found, lost hope that I won’t fly
And I sing along, I sing along, and I sing along

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can’t lie, it’s a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
‘Cause you’re my flashlight (flashlight)
You’re my flashlight (flashlight), you’re my flashlight


I see the shadows long beneath the mountain top
I’m not afraid when the rain won’t stop
‘Cause you light the way
You light the way,
You light the way

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can’t lie, it’s a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
(Light, light, light, you’re my flashlight)
Light, light, you’re my flashlight
Light, light, light, light, light, oh
(Light light light you’re my flashlight)
You’re my flash, oh

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
You’re getting me, getting me, through the night
Kick start my heart when you shine it in my eyes
Can’t lie, it’s a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight
(You’re my flashlight)
You’re getting me, getting me through the night
‘Cause you’re my flashlight
‘Cause you’re my flashlight
You’re my flashlight

Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh oh oh

You’re my flashlight
Light, light
You’re my flashlight
Light light ye-yeah

(Light light light
You’re my flashlight
Light light)

You’re my flashlight

(From Mexico in Love, December 2015)

God is the Centre, Life is Contented, and Be Humble

Life is full of competition, yes it’s true. However, no matter how hard life is, as long as God is the centre, as our hiding place, as long as we keep your relationship with God in everyday, we will endure to the life itself. We never felt unsatisfied with what God has given. We try our best for life, but let us ask whatever He intends to our life. Just keep your relationship with God in everyday, you will learn a lot about people around you and what you are supposed to treat your friends and people. You will feel the process of feeling contented without expecting any compliments from others. He is the one who takes care and gave life to you since you were born until now, so when no body cares, God will care. He will give you direction of what you will be as a humble person among this competition of life if you stick on Him everyday.

Even though it is hard to be a humble person, but God has done it before. We just can learn and practice it everyday, not people who jot down the virtues that you have done, but God will see and appreciate more than people you knew. This is the the way to be a humble person that I try to practice as well:

  1. Speaking as little as possible about yourself
  2. Mind matters – personal issues
  3. Avoid curiosity
  4. Do not meddle in the affairs of others
  5. Accept conflict with joy
  6. Do not focus on the mistakes of others
  7. Accept insults and obscenities
  8.  Accept feelings unnoticed, forgotten, and despised
  9.  Succumb to the will of others
  10. Accept taunts although you do not deserve
  11. Be polite and sensitive, even if someone lure your anger
  12. Do not try to be admired and loved
  13. Being in on the differences of opinion, although you are correct
  14. Choose always the hardest

Happy Easter!

GBU all!

April 28, 2014